Jakelicious :)

I met Jacob on a dating website. As embarrassing as that may be I don't regret it for a second! He is amazing. The nicest, sweetest, most honest, loving Guy I know! He makes me laugh and can make my heart skip a beat with a simple kiss. We have a ton in common and are really enjoying spending time together. He has 3 boys about the same ages as my kids. The weekends we have all 6 kids together can get pretty crazy! We're like the Brady Bunch! HA! Ill try to post some pictures soon.

New Beginnings

Life has been a whirlwind for the last year! Nick and i are not together anymore. Its been over a year since we separated and I'm happy to say that I am feeling great! Parting was hard, and the last year was filled with lots of tears and drinking. I was a complete zombie. Miserable and pathetic. But... not anymore. Time has passed, my broken heart is healed, and I feel better than ever. Sure I still have occasional bad days, but thats normal. For everybody. Right?

I have a wonderful Guy in my life who I simply can't get enough of (Jacob-more about him soon), a stable job (two years at Kohl's now), and three kids I love more than ever. Life is good. :)

Twilight Zone

Some days when I pause and take a look at my life and all of the major changes that have taken place over the past few months I feel like I'm in the twilight zone or something. Like I'm seeing someone else's life. Long story short~ Nick and I have parted ways. After 10 1/2 years of marriage we are staring into the face of divorce. I really don't want to go into full detail about the why's or how's because it's still too painful to talk about. Honestly, I think mostly it's just that we both are different people than we use to be. Things are coming to an end and I'm sad.

This makes me laugh!

This is Emma when she was about 9 months old, or so.

I'm a slacker

It's been too long since I last wrote! I'm totally slacking! I've been pretty busy lately. I finally got a job. Yep, I am a working woman now. I am the new Visual Supervisor for a brand new Kohl's store that is opening up right here in Clinton. (Or at least I will be once we get into the new building.) I am pretty excited about it. It sounds like a very busy job, which is great! I would much rather be busy than bored. I'm going to be the one running all over the store setting up different visual displays, and climbing ladders. (I'll be dressing mannequins, posting signs, making beds, etc.) So, I'll pretty much be all over the place all the time. I think it sounds like fun. So far the people I will be working with are awesome. All week we have been holding a job fair to hire all of our part-time employees. It's been crazy (there are some really weird people out there looking for jobs) but it's been fun getting to know my co-workers. I think we are all going to get along great.

Going from being a full-time stay at home mom to a full-time working mom is a little sad for me. I found an awesome babysitter for my kids that they love, so that has helped. I know that it's been harder on me than it has been on them. Emma cries when I come pick her up to bring her home at the end of the day because she wants to stay and play longer. Haha. Elliot seems to be perfectly comfortable there too. He didn't even cry when I left him the first day. I thought for sure he'd flip out but he surprised me. He's getting so big. Maybe that's why this is so hard for me. My kids are growing up too darn fast!

OK, well I'm going to go spend time with Nick now that the kids are all in bed. This week has been so crazy I feel like I haven't seen much of him lately.

Ciao!

I want to be Oblivious!

Right now I'm hiding. I put my headphones in my ears and turned up the volume so I can't hear anything but the music. Even though the kids have come to bug me a million times I'm still determined to sit here and listed to my music! Today has been a little stressful. I woke up to Elliot whining because he wanted candy for breakfast (which of course I said no) and because him and Mason were fighting over a video game. Then on top of that Ethan lied to me the night before about having his homework done (which of course it wasn't) so was I extremely frustrated because he just wanted me to give him all the answers instead of taking the time to think about it and he was whining and arguing with me about how it was too hard for him. THEN, Nick started to get on MY case because I was irritated and arguing with the kids too much!!!! Sheesh. Talk about a morning from hell. All I want is to wake up in the morning without having people all up in my face! Sometimes it feels like everyone needs 100 things from me all at the same time. Hello... I'm only one person people! And there is only so much drama and stress I can handle before I blow up. Blow up or cry. Which is what I did this morning. There's nothing like starting out your day with a bunch of people yelling at you and then crying your eyes out all before 8 a.m! I sure hope tomorrow morning is better. Maybe I'll just stick these headphones back in my ears while I'm making my coffee so I can't hear any of the whining and arguing. Good idea! I can be completely oblivious to the chaos around me and enjoy my coffee with some good tunes. Man, why didn't I think of that earlier?

OK, well I've been hiding for a pretty long time. I guess I better go peek at the kids just to make sure nobody is bleeding or anything.

10 years!

OK, so I had a post all written out about Nick and I's little weekend getaway for our 10th wedding anniversary but then my computer decided to take a shit and I lost it all! UGH! So, instead of writing it all out again I guess I'll just give you the short version.


We rented a condo up in the Ogden Canyon at the Lakeside Village.
It had a hot tub and a gorgeous view of the mountains and the reservoir.

It was very peaceful and we had a blast! I think we both were sad that we couldn't stay longer.

It's hard to imagine that we really have been married for 10 years already! Wow! Crazy.

Sadly, I didn't get very good pictures but at least you can get the idea from these.

It was a much needed break. We felt totally secluded, which was nice. We never even saw any other people the whole time we were there. Well, except for the lady who came to give us clean towels and scared the crap out of Nick. Ha Ha. We were out on the back deck so we didn't hear her knock and when we came inside she gave Nick a heart attack. It was funny.

Well, there you have it. My shortened version of my lost post.

Get to work!

The last few weeks I've been doing some job hunting! All I can say is UGH! There isn't really much to choose from. OK, so maybe I'm being a little picky. Its not that I don't want to work because I do! I just want this job to work out for the best, and not to be another source of stress on all of us. Having young kids at home really limits my availability... meaning that I'm going to have to get an evening/night job. The last job I got didn't work out because they were totally unwilling to work with me when it came to my schedule. I guess that's what I get for taking a job with a young, single, male manager in charge. He had no patience, and no sympathy for a mom with young kids at home. If I said I couldn't work until the evenings, he'd schedule me for the early afternoons. I'm sure that my lack of being able to stand up for myself and for always letting people walk all over me didn't help my situation either. Getting a job is just plain stressful for me! I hope I can find one that will work out this time. I love having a job. It makes me feel like I'm doing something good to contribute to our family, and it helps me feel more independent. I love staying at home with my kids but lets face it... being a stay at home mom can really get lonely. Yes, I've got kids around me all the time, but I need more adult interaction! I'm looking forward to having some time out of my house!!

OK, well enough whining from me. It's about noon, which means feeding time at the zoo! ha ha! I better get to it.

CIAO!

It's C-c-c-cold!!

Man, this month is full of surprises. A couple weeks ago it was 80+ degrees, and now it's freezing and snowy! Saturday afternoon we had a big birthday bash for Emma and Elliot. There was so many presents being opened between the two of them that it was total chaos, but a lot of fun. We had lots of friends and family here too, so it was crowded! We're lucky to have such a big group of awesome people to celebrate with.

Sunday morning we woke to find we had gotten about a foot of snow over night! With all the mess and presents from the birthday party still in my living room, and so much snow on the ground it totally felt like Christmas morning!!! I kept saying "Merry Christmas" to the kids, just to confuse them. Haha.

They say it's supposed to get back up into the 70's sometime next week. I hope it does because I feel totally cheated! Fall is my all-time favorite time of year and we didn't even get one yet. If we go straight from summer to winter I will be super mad! That's not even fair. I need to have those perfect, beautiful, sunshiny, cool days to enjoy before I hibernate for the winter.

I need to drink more coffee and try to defrost my toes! I guess that's a good excuse to snuggle up under a blanket and read more of my book. Cold weather, although NOT my favorite, does have some perks.... sometimes.

Ciao!

My favorite month

October is my favorite month and it's FINALLY here! There is so much fun stuff going on this month. Elliot turns 3 on the 13th and Emma turns 5 on the 14th! We are going to have a big birthday bash for them. I'm thinking about having a Halloween themed birthday party for them this year. Maybe the girls can all dress up as princesses and the boys as pirates. (or something like that) I will have to talk to the kids and see what they think. I'm also thinking about having another big Halloween party again this year. Last year we had one and it was so much fun. Everyone came dressed up, we had scary decorations, lots of good food, a few games, and a costume contest. I want to do it again. AND... I was thinking it would be a lot of fun to take everyone out to the Haunted Hallow. We went there a few years ago and it was totally fun, and scary! (It's a big haunted forest that's all set up outside) Of course that would have to be an adult thing because my kids would be to creeped out. Maybe we can to to a pumpkin patch and hay ride with the kids instead. Lagoon is having their Frightmares going on this month too. I've always wanted to go and this year we have season passes! Yay! I'm excited. Plus, there's also costumes to think about. I better get started on those. I think Ethan wants to be a warewolf, Emma wants to be a vampire, and Elliot... well I think he wants to be Link (from Zelda) again but I'm trying to talk him into being something different. We'll see how that goes haha. Nick said he wants to be Legolas (from Lord of the Rings) so that should be funny! As for me... I have NO idea. I'll have to come up with something good. Maybe I'll do something funny like an 80's punk rocker, or maybe something scary like a witch... I'm not sure.

Anyway... I'm totally rambling now so I will quit. I've got tons of laundry I should be doing anyway.

Ciao!