30!?! UGH!

So, in a couple of days I will be turning 30 years old! All I can say about that is UGH! Its not necessarily the number that disturbs me... more like the whole "I'm 30 and I'm STILL not a nurse yet" thing that bugs me. I never saw myself as a single mom working in retail. Bleh! BUT... I am trying to be positive and look at the bright side of things. It could be a lot worse! I have a stable job, three amazing kids, and the greatest boyfriend in the whole world! I guess being 30 won't be so bad after all. At least I don't have gray hair and wrinkles yet... haha.

Hearts of Steele

I had such a fun night! My birthday is next week and since Jacob and I don't have our kids this weekend we thought we could celebrate a little early. He took me to a concert in Ogden at the Egyptian Theater. One of the guys he works with has a sister who is a singer in a new country group called Hearts of Steele. We were sitting there listening to a sweet love song called With You and watching a couple doing a really romantic couples dance when I hear the Singer say "Tonight we would like to dedicate this song to Jake Farr and Amie Milner! Where are you two lovebirds?" Then Jacob starts clapping and shouting "Yeah! We're right here! Whoo hoo!" Then the lights went on, and everyone was looking at us and clapping... and my face went bright red! Hahaha. It totally caught me off guard. But how cool, and sweet is that?!? I could not stop smiling after that. Jacob is so freaking awesome. After the concert we went to Brewski's for drinks and laughs with a group of family and friends. It was a blast!

I wonder what he has planned for today. He wont tell me what we are doing, just said to wear jeans and maybe bring a jacket... I'm excited! Jacob and I can have fun doing absolutely anything together, so its going to be a good day, I just know it! :)

Rainy day, Bad mood.

I usually love rainy days. Today its just annoying. I wish it would just stop already! Summer is gone and fall, my favorite season, has started but I feel downright gloomy! Too much drama lately! Mean people suck! Especially when the things they say and do affect someone I love. I don't understand why people act the way they do sometimes, but is it really that hard just to be a genuinely nice person?? I think not! Ugh, no point stressing over it tho. Some people will never change. I'm just going to try and focus on the ones who matter and say TO HELL with the rest!

Jakelicious :)

I met Jacob on a dating website. As embarrassing as that may be I don't regret it for a second! He is amazing. The nicest, sweetest, most honest, loving Guy I know! He makes me laugh and can make my heart skip a beat with a simple kiss. We have a ton in common and are really enjoying spending time together. He has 3 boys about the same ages as my kids. The weekends we have all 6 kids together can get pretty crazy! We're like the Brady Bunch! HA! Ill try to post some pictures soon.

New Beginnings

Life has been a whirlwind for the last year! Nick and i are not together anymore. Its been over a year since we separated and I'm happy to say that I am feeling great! Parting was hard, and the last year was filled with lots of tears and drinking. I was a complete zombie. Miserable and pathetic. But... not anymore. Time has passed, my broken heart is healed, and I feel better than ever. Sure I still have occasional bad days, but thats normal. For everybody. Right?

I have a wonderful Guy in my life who I simply can't get enough of (Jacob-more about him soon), a stable job (two years at Kohl's now), and three kids I love more than ever. Life is good. :)

Twilight Zone

Some days when I pause and take a look at my life and all of the major changes that have taken place over the past few months I feel like I'm in the twilight zone or something. Like I'm seeing someone else's life. Long story short~ Nick and I have parted ways. After 10 1/2 years of marriage we are staring into the face of divorce. I really don't want to go into full detail about the why's or how's because it's still too painful to talk about. Honestly, I think mostly it's just that we both are different people than we use to be. Things are coming to an end and I'm sad.

This makes me laugh!

This is Emma when she was about 9 months old, or so.

I'm a slacker

It's been too long since I last wrote! I'm totally slacking! I've been pretty busy lately. I finally got a job. Yep, I am a working woman now. I am the new Visual Supervisor for a brand new Kohl's store that is opening up right here in Clinton. (Or at least I will be once we get into the new building.) I am pretty excited about it. It sounds like a very busy job, which is great! I would much rather be busy than bored. I'm going to be the one running all over the store setting up different visual displays, and climbing ladders. (I'll be dressing mannequins, posting signs, making beds, etc.) So, I'll pretty much be all over the place all the time. I think it sounds like fun. So far the people I will be working with are awesome. All week we have been holding a job fair to hire all of our part-time employees. It's been crazy (there are some really weird people out there looking for jobs) but it's been fun getting to know my co-workers. I think we are all going to get along great.

Going from being a full-time stay at home mom to a full-time working mom is a little sad for me. I found an awesome babysitter for my kids that they love, so that has helped. I know that it's been harder on me than it has been on them. Emma cries when I come pick her up to bring her home at the end of the day because she wants to stay and play longer. Haha. Elliot seems to be perfectly comfortable there too. He didn't even cry when I left him the first day. I thought for sure he'd flip out but he surprised me. He's getting so big. Maybe that's why this is so hard for me. My kids are growing up too darn fast!

OK, well I'm going to go spend time with Nick now that the kids are all in bed. This week has been so crazy I feel like I haven't seen much of him lately.

Ciao!

I want to be Oblivious!

Right now I'm hiding. I put my headphones in my ears and turned up the volume so I can't hear anything but the music. Even though the kids have come to bug me a million times I'm still determined to sit here and listed to my music! Today has been a little stressful. I woke up to Elliot whining because he wanted candy for breakfast (which of course I said no) and because him and Mason were fighting over a video game. Then on top of that Ethan lied to me the night before about having his homework done (which of course it wasn't) so was I extremely frustrated because he just wanted me to give him all the answers instead of taking the time to think about it and he was whining and arguing with me about how it was too hard for him. THEN, Nick started to get on MY case because I was irritated and arguing with the kids too much!!!! Sheesh. Talk about a morning from hell. All I want is to wake up in the morning without having people all up in my face! Sometimes it feels like everyone needs 100 things from me all at the same time. Hello... I'm only one person people! And there is only so much drama and stress I can handle before I blow up. Blow up or cry. Which is what I did this morning. There's nothing like starting out your day with a bunch of people yelling at you and then crying your eyes out all before 8 a.m! I sure hope tomorrow morning is better. Maybe I'll just stick these headphones back in my ears while I'm making my coffee so I can't hear any of the whining and arguing. Good idea! I can be completely oblivious to the chaos around me and enjoy my coffee with some good tunes. Man, why didn't I think of that earlier?

OK, well I've been hiding for a pretty long time. I guess I better go peek at the kids just to make sure nobody is bleeding or anything.

10 years!

OK, so I had a post all written out about Nick and I's little weekend getaway for our 10th wedding anniversary but then my computer decided to take a shit and I lost it all! UGH! So, instead of writing it all out again I guess I'll just give you the short version.


We rented a condo up in the Ogden Canyon at the Lakeside Village.
It had a hot tub and a gorgeous view of the mountains and the reservoir.

It was very peaceful and we had a blast! I think we both were sad that we couldn't stay longer.

It's hard to imagine that we really have been married for 10 years already! Wow! Crazy.

Sadly, I didn't get very good pictures but at least you can get the idea from these.

It was a much needed break. We felt totally secluded, which was nice. We never even saw any other people the whole time we were there. Well, except for the lady who came to give us clean towels and scared the crap out of Nick. Ha Ha. We were out on the back deck so we didn't hear her knock and when we came inside she gave Nick a heart attack. It was funny.

Well, there you have it. My shortened version of my lost post.